Your childhood hero is a fantastical piece of fiction, poorly developed and sloppily executed. He is often criticized as being false, shallow, gay and derivative by kids who make fun of your lunch box. Which is quite gay. As you have aged, you have recognized flaws with your childhood hero, such as that he's gay. However, you're determined to emulate him for the rest of your life, inevitably this will result in you becoming Elton John.